First of all, let me say Happy New Year. Wishing you all the best.
I’m spending this New Year alone but not lonely. (That’s so corny, sorry)
I’m sure everyone probably like the start the new year with the resolutions, new year new me stuff but I’m not sure I am up for that.
I have come a long, long way before I am who I am today. I’m pretty damn proud of it. I am grateful for those who were always beside me, my family, my boyfriend, my friends and I am thankful to have them by my side this year and in all the years to come.
I have no resolutions this year. I just have plans. I’m just making schedules for things I want to do instead. I want to make time to do what I want. I want to build new habits and get rid of some of my not-so-cool habits.
I’m scheduling for time to go to the gym every day. I’m scheduling for time to go to my art classes every week. I’m also scheduling for time to paint or at least sketch something every day.
I’m not changing anything. I’m just giving myself more time to do what I want.
It’s been a long and arduous fight finding myself and it’s going to be quite a journey.
The past year, I realized that my painting style started to jell. It’s emerging. Not consistent yet but it’s coming. I can start seeing similarities in all the paintings that I do and I actually like it.
I’m sure not everyone will like it but it’s the journey and the process that I’m getting addicted to.
Most people have certain expectations about things that they should be this way or that and it’s ok. Most of the time, my work or my art won’t meet these ideals and that’s ok. A lot of the times, I won’t meet these ideals as a person, and that’s fine, too.
After all these years, I can really say that I am proud of who I have become and it’s ok if who and what I am doesn’t fit other people’s molds. Because I don’t have to.
I supposed I just want to say that it’s ok to be true to yourself. As a matter of fact, you should be true to yourself and do what you’re passionate about.
I used to love to paint when I was a kid. Like everyone, we get the question, ‘What are you going to do with your painting?’
As kids, we just wanted to paint because it makes us happy. After the ‘growing up’ phase hit, I quit painting for years. I mean, years. I pretty much gave up all my art because I felt like I’m not doing well in school and I need to sacrifice what I love for what I should be doing.
I still didn’t do well in school. Never really did.
Fast forward years later, I realized that I want to paint. Actually, I realized I need to find a constructive hobby. Work has been stressful and I needed an out so I turned back to my art. I found an art hobby school that’s not far to go to and I started taking classes.
Now I’m working as a managing editor for an expat lifestyle magazine and I would never give up my art for anything. I always carry my little sketchbook with me. I would love to carry my paint palette with me as well but that will just be too heavy. It’s one of the things that keeps me sane.
Art is not useless. We see many emerging artists today than ever before.
The point is it’s ok to be different. It’s ok to be yourself even if it doesn’t fit other people’s expectations of who or what you should be.
We should be proud of who we are and never be ashamed of how other people sees you.
They’re just wearing a different filter.